可是呀只有你
曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解
我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起
至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的
在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

It's the first time i ever felt that i could relate to chinese songs. Somehow the lyrics mean so much. Too much. Had been listening to this song many times, over and over again.

Gosh, midyears are in a week's time and i've yet to start my revision. Really stressed up, I feel the need to live up to people's expectations. When they expect so much from me, all i can do is to try harder.

Getting quite cranky nowadays, but it's my fault seriously. Blame the weather and some people. Ha, some people really get on my nerves sometimes. They get so engrossed doing some things which most people would go, "What the...". Just too self absorbed i guess. The class is getting rather irritating as well, a group of them just can't seem to shut up and listen in tutorial. Slowing down the pace, i know i'm being mean since i've learnt the stuff before. But i do not see any effort in them trying to appear to listen or copy down the tutorial answers. At least try to pretend right. You can daydream for all you like, but don't keep talking for goodness sake. Ugh.

What happened to me? Everyday, i go to school, pretending to be happy. I miss us. I miss my besties. I miss the old me.

All at one go

Finally updating this pretty much abandoned site! Things have been alright. Survived orientation and SP programme. Guess i've adapted to the new class, but i still miss 09-1S25 girls. The class is just so different from last year. Some of them have really 'interesting' character. Hahaha. Oh well it's just another 7 to 8mths before the class will splits.

Back to the start of the year! During SP programme, we had to attend pottery lessons at Thow Kwang Pottery. Quite interesting but tiring. My end product is a freak house, it has a maggie looking roof -.- Hahaha. Then came the new jc1s 2 weeks later, got thrown into og a2 with nobody i knew. The amazing thing about people is that when you have no friends around yourself in a new environment, you'll really learn to step out of your comfort zone and try to mingle around. Tata that was what i did, and i met really nice people! Yeah that was how i survived academic orientation.

Went ms wong's house 2 weeks back to kind of bai nian. Met up with Mel finally! Amazingly we didn't get lost. J was there so it was abit awkward luckily he left early and the atmosphere got better hahaha. Learnt alot that day and i'm really looking forward to the next gathering/sleepover!

Sometimes i wonder if i've made the right choice when i see some of my friends doing so well in polys. 1.5 more years of hell, fun and stress. I hope i survive.

Sometimes i feel that i'm already over you, but it's very difficult not to be reminded of you. The things we used to do, the places we used to go and the long bus rides we used to take. Last night i was on the bus and i'm reminded of you again. Sigh.
That long phonecall a few days ago, what was the point of that? I sounded fine but i wasn't.

Hello 2010 :>

New Year new resolutions? But what's the point of having resolutions when you don't keep them haha! I guess 2010 resolution would be to study harder, stop being lazy.

Had an eventful week, met up with the bn clique. Been 5 years but mostly nothing changed, love them very very much. The usual "must have gossips" never fail to entertain all of us, though it's just the same old stories. Never gotten sick of them haha.
Went town today(again), been there twice this week. Singapore is so boring ugh, same old places. I want to go Bangkok! Hahaha. Platinum Shopping Mall i miss you very much i know you miss me alot too right.
Can't believe school is going to start soooooon, one more week to go. But there's guitar on monday, wednesday and friday next week, yikes yikes yikes. But yay, picnic at the Barrage with Michelle, Olivia and Jiawen on Tuesday :) Finally done something on our post promos to-do-list. Only one of the many written on that card :/

Yup bye! Got to start studying tmr. Plate Tectonics still haha, epic fail. Till then!