Gone forever

Mariah Carey- Bye Bye

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters,
brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why I didn't show up sometimes on Sunday mornings
and I missed you
But i'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
Wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As..time..goes..by

And as soon as you've reached a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm back here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye

And you never got the chance to
see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave
me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
Wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As.. time.. goes.. by

And as soon as you've reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm back here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters,
brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye ...bye

To my grandma, now that you're gone we'll all miss you. Though we were never close, you'll always be my grandma. You've lived a tough life, it's time for you take a good rest. Goodbye.

The hopsital seems to be a familar place now.

Same infrastructure, different patients with each visit. Maybe it's just time for her to go. Everybody is suffering like that, endless visits and each visit is really heartrenching. A part of me really wants her to be freed of such torture, but still........................

It is sad that nearly 17 years of my life, i've never spoken to her before. It was always just a Hi and a Bye. Language Barrier? Maybe, but that is definitely not an excuse. I always thought that i will not feel the pain as much as the rest. But this time, reality sets in. Maybe i should start being nice before its too late.

For a moment like this, some people wait a lifetime.

We travel through life searching for the beautiful,

But unless we carry it with us as we go.

We will never find it.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

The reason i'm here is obviously that the promos are over over over over, Not. Ha ha ha, one more mcq paper to go on Tues :D Nah, but i'm not really looking forward to the end of promos. After promos = more pw = more time wasted doing crap = lesser sleep = More grumpy.
Lol no link but whatever yes i agree with yurong, pw sucks ttm.

Let me recall what i've done the previous weeks. Many many study dates with all different people. Study break spent with Olivia at airport, major failure. Cause we were too tired and ended up sleeping. Oh i think i can study better at the library, cause i'm more productive at the library and it's quieter. Maybe studying with smart people like bf and nicole helps, haha kidding! I like going to the library except for the fact that must go super early in the morning to wait to the door to open and afterwhich you have to chiong in like some crazy auntie. Ugly Singaporeans, seriously. Mugging at library is really hardcore, we're one of the first few to reach the library and we leave only when the library closes. My last study date was with zoey, after Math paper at airport again. Yup that's all i have done the previous weeks.

I've tried my best this and maximised the time i had left and whatever the results are i shall be thankful. To maximise my sleeping time, i slept with my notes! :D Haha super lame but i think it really helps you know! Studies have shown that if you sleep with your books, the next day you will remember the stuff. Ahaha just joking. I believe in that, cause my O levels Comb Humanities got a B3 eventhough i only studied 1 chpt of Hist and SS. The secret behind the 'sucess' ? I slept with both books. Go try!

Oh anyway, the quote above was taken from a book named ''In search of happiness'', bf's friend found it so i took a look at the book. It's quite motivational but boo it's not for loan :/ Maybe i will go to the library one day and read the book haha.

Wow this is the longest blog post i've ever written. And before i go off to practice some mcq qns..............

HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY MICHELLE (:

I know it's really late but it's okay right! Because the wish is from me! Hahaha. There was a mini celebration on 22nd sept for her. And i'll upload the pictures sooooon. TTFN <3